To someone I'm always grateful with

Araw-araw kitang tinitiis.
Marami sana akong gusto pang ikuwento at sabihin sa iyo,
gusto kaya kita ichat araw-araw at kulitin sa kung anu-ano,
gusto ko sana sabihin sayo na pakiKaltukan nga ng ulo ko ngayon
pero bakit ganoon..

parang ang hirap na ibalik ng kahapon..
yung sobrang lapit pa natin sa isa't-isa.
Ngayon, marami na tayong pagkakaiba.

Ganun ba talaga kapag nagkaroon ng damdamin sa isa't-isa?
yung akala mong kaibigan lang,
yung pala sa iyo'y may lihim na pagsinta.

Nakakalito. Gusto kong kulitin kang muli,
pero nahihirapan na akong magawa.
Feeling ko kasi baka maistorbo lamang kita.
Iba na nga ba tayo sa isa't-isa?
Gano na nga ba tayo kalayo sa isa't-isa?

Ang sakit lang. Sobrang halaga mo kasi sakin bilang isang kaibigan.
Yung dati na lagi kong napuputahan, nakakakuwentuhan, naaasahan at nasasandalan.
Pero ngayon, ang hirap hirap na.

Aminado rin ako, na isang dahilan nito ay iniiwasan ko rin yung sarili ko na ma-attach muli sayo. Kasi, ewan ko ba. Alam mo namang nagkamali ako diba? Siguro kaya ganun.
At saka nalilito pa ako sa tuwing naiisip ko na pano kung ikaw nga yung laan ni Lord para sakin.. Alam ko, na titino ako sayo. Na da' Best ka. Pero at the same time, I felt that I'm not the right one for you. Di ako ang karapat-dapat para sayo.. dahil sa dami na ng maling nagawa ko..

Sana, manatili kang mabuting kaibigan ko na parating andiyan needed man o hindi. Kasi, I'm always grateful with you. You're one of the People that I looked up to. That one friend that I always seek strength to. And most, you're the channel why I found my life back to God. Kaya, I will always be a good friend for you. I value you. ^_^

Whatever God's plan is, let it happen. May God bring out the best in us.

Akala ko

Akala ko Thursday pa lang
Yun pala'y sabado na.

Kung di pa tatanungin si Erika
kung may pasok ba siya
ay di mapagtatanto
na Sabado na pala.

Nung sinabi niyang
aalis sila kaya hindi siya papasok
akala ko ay
liliban lamang siya ng pasok
yun pala'y
Sabado na nga pala.

Palibhasa, naiiba ang aking iskedyul
mula Wednesday hanggang Sabado
marahil naninibago pa ako
Hahaha.
Epic na araw itu.

My falldown

I let myself.
Fall into you.
Never thought that I will just fall into the trap.
A trap that I almost wanted to fall onto.
A trap that I almost wanted to live unto.
Worst, that trap that I've already been through
which I chose to get back to.

I thought I was strong enough to avoid
but truly we should be careful
even though we thought that we are strong enough
we never know until it gets through

Had lost my hope in waiting for you
due to the hurt that I have suffered through
Focus was gone.
Been distorted from what they had whispered.
Distressed from what the world had showered
Frustrated from what the things had offered

Have wondered where it all began
and when realized,
I just told myself, "you've never been strong
because your foundation is wrong".

Now, I'm thinking
how will I get back into my right self again
how will I ever feel whole again
how will I ever fell love again
I know
from the very start
that It will just be founded
from God
alone

That's why I'm trying hard
to help myself get-up
and get back into His arms
to feel His embrace that comforts me everyday
to feel His love that completes me each day

I hope that I could still make it right
I hope that I will see change in my life
To become so strong as how God wants me to be

FIRM DECISION

Firm Decision?

Truly, What it is? 

They said, it's never too late to start all over again.
But how? I don't even know where to start. Don't even know if I could make it RIGHT.
Better should I, start it RIGHT! I doubt it. But they said, don't think of your self as a loser.
I wonder, Did I? Was always afraid that I cannot make it any longer. But I know I should atleast give it a
try. 

I was once told, just make a FIRM decision. Truly, how it is?