My falldown

I let myself.
Fall into you.
Never thought that I will just fall into the trap.
A trap that I almost wanted to fall onto.
A trap that I almost wanted to live unto.
Worst, that trap that I've already been through
which I chose to get back to.

I thought I was strong enough to avoid
but truly we should be careful
even though we thought that we are strong enough
we never know until it gets through

Had lost my hope in waiting for you
due to the hurt that I have suffered through
Focus was gone.
Been distorted from what they had whispered.
Distressed from what the world had showered
Frustrated from what the things had offered

Have wondered where it all began
and when realized,
I just told myself, "you've never been strong
because your foundation is wrong".

Now, I'm thinking
how will I get back into my right self again
how will I ever feel whole again
how will I ever fell love again
I know
from the very start
that It will just be founded
from God
alone

That's why I'm trying hard
to help myself get-up
and get back into His arms
to feel His embrace that comforts me everyday
to feel His love that completes me each day

I hope that I could still make it right
I hope that I will see change in my life
To become so strong as how God wants me to be